Thursday, July 8, 2010

Not Going to watch Movies. til 8/8/10

From henceforth, I have declared a moratorium on myself on watching dvds from the library, my chief unproductive distraction among looking stuff up on wikipedia and organizing my iTunes playlist.

Today was a long hot summer day. As i readied myself for my biking adventure (when I bike, I always consider it a journey, plus workout and saving the environment from not burning fossil fuels yay!) I realized that things did not go according to plan. But as Frost said I did take the road not taken, 'and it has made all the difference.'

I consumed a bowl of bowl noodles that my mom bought at Costco for cheap and even slurped the MSG enriched soup. Sometimes I think chicken flavor noodles tend to taste a bit like chicken curry. Must be the turmeric or paprika they put in the soup mix. The noodles were a bit soggy and well cooked. I like my noodles al dente if you know what i mean.

I straddled my bike and with a lunge I'm flying off the cul-de-sac and the wind is plowing right through me. Kenny Loggin's "Danger Zone" is playing within my head as I pass the guy taking a siesta who sells mangos, pineapples, strawberries and oranges on the corner of the two main avenues that converge. I make a right on the adjoining street, staying in my bike lane and avoiding traffic on my left. I'm inches away from automobiles, one quick lurch can send me flying off my seat and onto the asphalt to make human pizza.

I make a right and end up at the district office where I navigate to human resources to drop off my application. The office is an old building yet within is a whitewashed modern building that is akin to the labyrinth.

I kick off the bike rest bar and pedal my way back onto my street. As I head down the street a couple blocks before the next street, a loud conversation between squabbling adults can be heard loudly from the minivan's down window. i hear the Vietnamese guy trying to start up his car. He pops the hood and scratches his head, trying to figure out why the car's not working.

I grab my memo from my pack as I'm driving and zip back the pouch of my messenger bag all the while keeping my vision center to avoid a traffic collision. Once again, I am not fond of human pizza. Chicago style pizza from a place in Oakland called Zachary's yes! my body thrown to the four winds on a congested San Jose street. No thanks... Onto my story.

So I cruise on by and realize I've come into a dead end. The street is a cul-de-ac with a children's park with a rainbow motif. I head on forward and end up on a bridge over 680 S. The chain link guards are raised up high and curves, like a ballet dancer in fifth position. I weave past two steel columns that act as speed barriers.

I make a left and I'm on my way. A gut feeling tells me to make a right and continue on my route but my excited nature leads me off course. I ask a youth with some iPod earphones stuck to his ears where the street i was supposed to turn on was. He doesn't know.... I go the long way and end up lost. I find my way back onto story and figure it's a long way till I reach SJSU.

As I'm on the intersection of Story and McLaughlin, after passing by a recycling center, an African American male comments on how significant it is to have a helmet for safety reasons. We chat cordially about the dense traffic congestion in east/south San Jose, in this area of Seven Trees and the feeling is mutual. Both, two dudes, waiting for the walk signal so we can go our own ways. How personal is a conversation between a one on one in person encounter. When I'm talking on my cell and a voice is talking, I feel that I'm listening to their voice and not really having a conversation with someone. I dunno, I just feel so disconnected gabbing on Skype or texting on my cell. The communcation is limited, the conversation is half its real worth.

he zips away, probably off to work and I ponder on how hospitable people you just happen to meet are on the road, especially strangers you would never meet if you stayed home watching tv. I like the adventure, the spontaneity of seeing new faces and exchanging conversations on insights you never knew you would have.

I done paying the balance of my student fee increase, and I stare at the walk signal. I slap my thighs as if that will get its attention. Then i realize there's a button. i slap the button, it pops back out with a pop sound. I make it to the cafe. it's right across the city hall.

I order up a bag of coffee beans and immediately the barista and I carry on a conversation about coffee culture ruminating about how coffee is brewed, the flavors of the beans (the bag of beans has this nutty smell to them, as he described, like Nutter Butters.) and then he offered me a cup of decaf. He steamed the milk and prepared the espresso machine. After a good tight compression of the fine espresso grind, he frothed up the whole milk and poured it into a ceramic cup with a saucer. The foam barely poured out of the cup, held to the edge by gravity. There was a leaf pattern swirl of the mix between coffee and steamed milk. I admired it's beauty and proceeded to, in my photographic way, to take a cell phone picture of it. I sipped it down, occassionally munching on a sky flake crackers

I think about it for a minute and decide not to work on my work applications in the library. I take the bus home and for some reason have trouble getting the bike on the rack in front of the bus. It takes me a couple tries until the bus driver, motions me to pull the hook over the front wheel and presto! The problem is solved.

I rest in my bus seat until the bus arrives at my stop. Bike back and just crash at home. I'm tired and it had been a long day.

Not going to watch movies! RICA pass or bust!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

chestnut trees

Today is another summery day. After a long day of job hunting, formating my resumes and proofreading, I cannot seem to find a way to keep the time from flying. These nice summer days are fleeting yet my room is still a mess. Student's artwork from a year of teaching stay the same only I've changed. Old papers that smack of academic jargonese and awkward phrases. Dust flies freely in this dungeon of crap. Crap that i've accumulated over the years.

Life seems to be pretty mellow right now. No sleepless night prepping for lesson plans, no all night classes. I've survived. I give the phone call a thought. Here's a part time job working as an aide waiting for me in August, yet I stubbornly yearn for a teaching job, one with my own classroom or teaching non native English speakers English.

American chestnut trees are affected by an unusual blight, a disease that kills it in its premature stage. Exceptional for its wood in furniture and other usages, it also had tasty nuts. Hence. 'chestnuts roasting on an open fire.' It's hard to think about how it'll ever return to its pre-blight status. Scientists are still working on cross polinating and making the American chestnut more resistant to the blight by cross breeding it with the Asian chestnut tree.

I wonder where life went when I was living it. All i have are the memories and the moments that seem to last but are gone. I'm lost in my own world of paper, dust and pieces of life all scattered within this tiny space. The dust is revealed as the sunrays envelop me room. I open up the window, draw up the blinds, and let the breeze carry out the staleness of my room.

Night falls and alas, I have only touched the surface. Until tomorrow, another day of routines and procedures. Gotta run some errands, cut the lawn and study for the constitution test.

yuck.






Monday, June 28, 2010

'somewhere in the Night....'

'hold onto that feeling...'

the piano chords start....his voice shouts "Just a small town girl...."

It's Journey, and my cousin's reconsidering leaving the dance. She tells her spouse with suitcoat in hand, her lethargic son, and her cousins who are carpooling to head back to the dance floor.

It's a song she heard in high school but is so classic that it seems to transcend generations. She wonders how six year old kids know the lyrics and dance to this 80s song that their mothers probably danced to.

First time i heard this song was in 'the wedding singer' starring adam sandler and drew barrymore. Sandler also uses this song in his film bedtime stories, where he tells stories to his children and it actually comes true.

Some other classic rock standards are playing

My cousin's holding a tumbler with ice water, a black straw and a lime. She takes me to the dance floor, me the wallflower i am. She's tired from dancing on the floor to some other songs. Uncle is about to head to the floor and she tells me to hold onto her drink. She has to have one dance at least with dad. reasonable. I take the glass put it down and head to where my carpool party is swaying back and forth.

it's 'you shook me all night long' by ac/dc's playing. I can see my other cousin's husband jumping up and down with his rock salute goin' up and down.

another tune's playing, some inappropriate pop tune's playing and the dance moves are flying left and right. But my cousin's husband trying to teach me and my brother some line dance moves. we follow him but we end up bumping into each other. Then my aunt steps onto the dance floor and she motions to us with her feet movements that she's gonna do the electric slide. we follow her lead and soon, all four of us are doing the electric slide. Then all the dancers become spectators, curious at what the sensation is.

It's like that scene in "Saturday Night Fever" when all the people just dance in sequence, led by the music and not by how clumsy or awkward their movement looks like. It's just rhythm and movement, in unison. You gotta feel it and not worry about how silly it is.

we exchange our thanks, shake some hands, give some hugs and exchange our farewells.

As we leave for the 'second time,' ' sweet child o' mine' is playing and we leave. It's a suitable ending to the wedding festivities. Back to the car, catch some zzz's and then meet up tomorrow morning for the brunch.

I'm told later that the party ended a few mins after we left. The party favors stood untaken and up for grabs. Took some time to deal with them and the ones left headed over to denny's for some midnight grub and to catch up. Feels like prom night and the only place to eat and shoot the breeze is an american diner, like Denny's, where breakfast is served all day and night, slices of pie and cake rotate in a glass display and Heinz ketchup and mustard are at your beck and call, next to the salt and pepper shaker and them square napkin dispensers.

I miss those nights, staying up late after a long day of pictures, dancing and all the while getting all dressed up, pretending we're rich and sophisticated, all that, but it's a rite of passage, prom or ball that is, to just celebrate our next stage in life, after high school.

Where college happens, we start to be more independent in our responsibilities and duties. The music keeps playing in my mind. Wedding music, from Mendelssohn to BeachBoys, The day began and ended with music.

I suppose wedding playlists are important. The music starts us off by indicating when the groom enters the sanctuary and when to rise to greet and honor the bride as she enters in her wedding dress.

Then the night is young, the guests start tapping their feet, strutting their stuff. Or the anniversary dance where the couples in love are requested to report to the dance floor. Then the years are counted off. And the last couple on the floor tell us how long they've been together.

A couple, very much in love, revealed to the crowd that they'd been together for half a century. Astounding applause as they still swayed together as the wind. Not relishing in the flattery but enjoying each other's presence.

The music, the dance, the songs we sang together.

'somewhere in the night....don't stop believin'.....'

' sweet child of mine' by guns 'n roses is playing, bellowing from the speakers. It's a great send off.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Wedding Playlist

I'm making a wedding playlist. I know, its weird. But I suppose music for me is a way of not just listening but also expressing yourself. I mean people sing songs for all sorts of reasons to convey something.

Well here are some that have slipped under my radar.

'The Search is Over' by Survivor

'Faithfully' by Journey

'Amanda' by Boston

'Babe' by Styx

'More Than Words' by Xtreme

"All Out of Love' by Air Supply

'Glory of Love' by Peter Cetera (yes, the theme song from The Karate Kid...)

"I Will Always Love You" by Whitney Houston.

Ok, i think that's about it for now. It seems like more I think of these songs, it brings me back to
my childhood, listening to Delilah on late night adult contemporary radio. How she'd give advice on relationships and make song requests for loved ones far and wide.

well, i guess it time to think some more about other songs.




Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Looking for Work

5 hundred dollars!?....FIVE hundred dollars!!!??

my first gut reaction stepping outta of that place. Seems like it costs more than an arm and a leg just to get by in this life, esp. in these parts.

Well, howdy there. My name's Jay. That's what my family calls me. I'd like to share a bit about my day today but then again, let's not. We're not acquainted so, I'll just talk about movies I've watched. I'm sure I probably seen a movie you've seen and we can have some common ground.

So I woke up a half hour past nine this morn, i'd been watching 'high noon' starring gary cooper.

A cool western, sorta like '3:10 to yuma' except its more intense. Especially the back story and how it unfolds in real time. sorta like '24.'

The film's black and white, the marshal in town's all alone and he has to fend off some hooligans who are gathering together to make a ruckus in the nice, quaint frontier town. Unfortunately, the citizens are weary of going up again bandits so its all gravitas from here on.

Not a bad film but it can be frustrating especially since there's only minimal gunfighting, (it's a western, no gunfights and gun smoke, wha?)

well, all in all, a very thoughtful film. Definitely a classic that any age and generation can find common ground.


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

post-eleven p.m!?: plans for summer...

to world.

I've returned to this blog, once again, after a long year of credential coursework and not working.

*sigh*

a friend from high school tells me a sigh takes three years from my life. For some reason, everything this year seemed long, there were the weddings, the night classes, observing classrooms, shadowing teachers...."on and on and on and on, street lights people/up and down the boulevard"

seems like i squeezed in a journey lyric in there. it's from 'don't stop believin'' awesome rock song.


Well I'm following the bandwagon by making a list of what to do this summer.

TO DO(s)

PASS THE RICA (S.H.M.G. ) * hint, George Washington, the U.S. first president added this to his inauguration swearing in .*

attend a couple more weddings

find work

budget expenses

get a new car

polish up resume

CLEAN ROOM

watch LOST (I'm sooooo behind. )

long term:

be a counselor at baayf

STM to Chicago

volunteering at a cafe (learning how to make coffee)

learn how to play at least three songs

so far on my youtube queue of guitar lessons to review:

"summer of '69" bryan adams
'boulevard of broken dreams' greenday
'hey there delilah' plain white t's

So there you have it. my plans for the summer.


Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Got a girlfriend?

So I'm driving someone to watch a romantic drama, one about a soldier back home from his tour of duty and he meets the love of his life. You probably know what movie she watched.

I am cruising down the 87 south towards Santa Teresa Ave, trying to get to Oakridge Mall, she she remarks, "got a girlfriend yet? I just have to get to the chase." Regretably I'm aback by that statement, I form up some excuse of a rebuttal and it comes out to "don't have the time..."

It's funny, someone even remarked that due to my poor organization skills, I needed someone to keep me on time and at the right place, like a mom who yells get up like a pre determined alarm clock. MY mom's like that. She's wakes up early.

Well, it made me think about my own understanding of relationships, particularly of the opposite gender. As Harry and Sally talked about, can men and women be friends? Well, I suppose I have friends who are women and also those who are men. But what I find trouble with is going deeper beyond the friendliness and into that place where you search for companionship.

Adam had Eve, Han had Leia, but what about J$?

It seems to me that this is a question that I ask myself everyday. I'm getting older as a twenty something, I still haven't found my sweetheart after getting out of college and I still live at home.

Another ramble brought to you by yours truly

- jaymoney.